to be the apple of his eye…

This past semester has been a challenging and victorious journey! My heart has desired so much to live in the fullness of who God is, and who he has made me to be! It has been a journey of healing that hurt at times, love encounters in heaven, and the Lord speaking his promises over my life. The Lord has called me to a new life. The life he has made available to me. A life of complete joy, peace, love, and purpose.

Before I came to Bethel i had a dream: In this dream, my friend Lauren Caldwell was leading about 20 girls in worship in my Dad’s backyard. The ground was dry, and the grass was dead. I came to the worship gathering late, carrying heavy bags in my arms…. I walked through the crowd, I was singing the familiar song under my breath… as we sang the  chorus, something powerful happened. I sang out ” I lay down who I am trying to be to recieve all that you are.” As i sang these words, i face planted under the power of God, then woke up.

I believe the lord was saying something.

It all comes down to one thing. It is for this one thing that we lose our lives to find them. It is for this one thing that we endure hardship– for the joy set before us… No power will satisfy. No sign or wonder or miracle performed will suffice. Only love. Only to be the apple of his eye. only to be face to face with my Father. Only love. Because his love is the greatest thing, the greatest pleasure, the greatest bliss, the greatest peace, the greatest power. I know that he fully lavishes his love on me every second of every day, even when we sleep and are doing nothing, he extravagantly pours out his fullness. And I know this… that when I trust him enough, I love him back. When I open my heart to his extraordinary love, heaven is manifested in my life, the things that the King and the angels see– i see. All I know is that when i trust him, i love him  and i am overcome with the fullfillment of every desire and ache of my being… I am made new. I pray that my heart keeps trusting more and more, because He is perfectly good, loving, and full of grace. His love covers all my sin, and he releases grace to do the impossible.

This love is the best thing. And it is what i give my life for, to be a lover.  This is all our heavenly Father is looking for. Kathryn Kuhlman, a great revivalist of the past, walked in so much power and authority that when she preached people would fall under the power of God for up to the 3 miles in radius of her. She explains that it is all about love to graduating ORU students:

http://flash.lemoin.com/video/Kathryn_Kuhlman_excerpt_1972_ORU_Baccalaureate.swf

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