the day that Jesus died, fulfillment was released. 

Heaven was opened up over us.  God made his dwelling in us. We are in him, and he is in us. in his flesh, Jesus carried the union of God and man, and in his death both came together. 

Now we are in heaven, and heaven is in us. Now all we have to do is see it- to lift up our eyes and see—it is done. it is finished. Jesus bought us with his blood.

 there is no more sacrafice to be had.. only love. recieve. pour out affection… there is nothing we need to make happen, rather we are to recieve the gifts.

It’s raining. pouring. We don’t need to do a rain dance to make it rain, that is the old way. It’s raining! go outside and dance in it! haha!

Flowing from Emmanuel’s veins is everything I need. everything i desire. everything I seek. I need not beg or pry or try, but open up my heart and mind to know, it’s all here. the fulfillment is with me. in my lovers heart, who is always with me. be still my soul, and rejoice in your inheritance.

don’t worry little lamb, it’s Papa’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.  He is so kind to guide me through my dreams fulfilled.

“For we know that if  the earthly tent which is our house is torn down, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For indeed in this house we groan, longing to be clothed with our dwelling from heaven inasmuch as we, having put it on, will not be found naked.

For indeed while we are in this tent, we groan, being burdened, because we do not want to be unclothed but to be clothed, so that what is mortal will be swallowed up by life. Now He who prepared us for this very purpose is God, who gave to us the Spirit as a guarantee.

Therefore, being always of good courage, and knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord– for we walk by faith, not by sight–we are of good courage, I say, and prefer rather to be absent from the body and to be at home with the Lord.

 Therefore we also have as our ambition, whether at home or absent, to be pleasing to Him. For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may be recompensed for his deeds in the body, according to what he has done, whether good or bad.

 Therefore, knowing the fear of the Lord, we persuade men, but we are made manifest to God; and I hope that we are made manifest also in your consciences.

 We are not again commending ourselves to you but are giving you an occasion to be proud of us, so that you will have an answer for those who take pride in appearance and not in heart.

for if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; if we are of sound mind, it is for you.

 For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this, that one died for all, therefore all died; and He died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf.

 Therefore from now on we recognize no one according to the flesh; even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him in this way no longer.

 Therefore if anyone isin Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.

 Now all these things are from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation,

namely, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and He has committed to us the word of reconciliation.

 Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us; we beg you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.

 He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.”

2 corinthians 5

Life has been great here in Norman. I am fully convinced that being a lover is the highest calling. Everytime I pray for this city, I hear the Lord speak about how he is looking for lovers. he desires our love more than anything else.

Norman is destined to be a city of laid down lovers.

I know that this is what the Spirit is already doing in our hearts. God, would you open up our hearts to be filled with your fullness that surrounds us? Holy spirit open up our eyes to see the glory that has covered the earth! Holy spirit, would you give us grace to be held by the father in complete and perfect trust? Jesus, thank you for your blood. Thankyou that it isn’t by our works that we recieve.. .but it is by your blood. your glory. your wine. your spirit. that we drink from the cup of heaven. it is by your blood Jesus— your mighty works, that we live.

The lord is releasing reveletion over this city. I declare open eyes and ears over this city. that we would be those who have tasted the bliss of heaven and are forever addicted to the river of delight that comes from your heart. you are our portion. you are our food. The richness of your house satisfies us! The wine of your presence is what stirs our spirits to love you extravagantly and live in the fullness that has been paid for.

We wont mock your sacrifice. we wont ignore your sacrafice. we will drink of your sacrafice. we love you Jesus.

The history of the Body Shop http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3TxmiWncJ48

About Anita Roddick: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lg7pdqPg8Uo&feature=related

corporate social responsibilityhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k44WifxDSX4&feature=related

What is success in business? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbyvLMav_go&feature=related

Before I came to Bethel i had a dream: In this dream, my friend Lauren Caldwell was leading about 20 girls in worship in my Dad’s backyard. The ground was dry, and the grass was dead. I came to the worship gathering late, carrying heavy bags in my arms…. I walked through the crowd, I was singing the familiar song under my breath… as we sang the  chorus, something powerful happened. I sang out ” I lay down who I am trying to be to recieve all that you are.” As i sang these words, i face planted under the power of God, then woke up.

I believe the lord was saying something.

It all comes down to one thing. It is for this one thing that we lose our lives to find them. It is for this one thing that we endure hardship– for the joy set before us… No power will satisfy. No sign or wonder or miracle performed will suffice. Only love. Only to be the apple of his eye. only to be face to face with my Father. Only love. Because his love is the greatest thing, the greatest pleasure, the greatest bliss, the greatest peace, the greatest power. I know that he fully lavishes his love on me every second of every day, even when we sleep and are doing nothing, he extravagantly pours out his fullness. And I know this… that when I trust him enough, I love him back. When I open my heart to his extraordinary love, heaven is manifested in my life, the things that the King and the angels see– i see. All I know is that when i trust him, i love him  and i am overcome with the fullfillment of every desire and ache of my being… I am made new. I pray that my heart keeps trusting more and more, because He is perfectly good, loving, and full of grace. His love covers all my sin, and he releases grace to do the impossible.

This love is the best thing. And it is what i give my life for, to be a lover.  This is all our heavenly Father is looking for. Kathryn Kuhlman, a great revivalist of the past, walked in so much power and authority that when she preached people would fall under the power of God for up to the 3 miles in radius of her. She explains that it is all about love to graduating ORU students:

http://flash.lemoin.com/video/Kathryn_Kuhlman_excerpt_1972_ORU_Baccalaureate.swf

I had a dream a couple of weeks ago. In this dream, my mom and I were in front of a friends house, by their driveway. There was a strange furby like creature that was chasing us trying to eat us. What is funny is that this thing was very small and stupid! And I probably could have kicked it across the yard. haha. But it chased us, eating the grass and flowers in its path. We fearfully ran from this thing in circles, around and around and around, in an endless cycle of fear. Then something unexpected happened: the furby creature hit a curb! haha! and it tipped over, unable to move because it moved only by rolling on wheels. I looked over at it and saw that there was an on and off switch. I thought to myself, “I could turn this off if I wanted to”, but i didn’t. I turned the creature back over and it started chasing me again as I screamed for my life.

The next day God gave me the interpretation of this dream. I was at church and we watched the Furious Love documentary (the sequel to Finger of God). In this film, I witnessed demonic opression, deliverances, and people encountering God’s love for the first time. It was full of people who had no idea that they had a Father in heaven who love them.

After the video, we had a fire tunnel (a prayer tunnel). I walked through getting completely rocked. God spoke clearly to me saying, “There is nothing that separates you from me. NOTHING! You have every spiritual blessing in Jesus! There is no lack, no inadequacy that keeps you from me! I have put no wall between us. There is no limit to how much of my love you can have! THERE IS NO LIMIT! hahah!” When he said this my spirit changed, his words went deep.  I walked around yelling, “There is no limit!” I ended up on the floor praying and recieving more from God. His presence was so overwhelming and so thick, and he filled me with so much faith to keep asking for more. So I kept asking for more! haha! And then he said something that made me weep.

He said with an ache in his voice: ” It breaks my heart that my children think they are separated from me! My children have it all, but they have been decieved into thinking they are in lack! My heart aches for my children to know that I have set no limits between us.  My children have a choice. They can choose to live in the truth or to partner with the inferior lie of separation. My children have a choice, but they have been decieved to believe they are powerless to things like fear and depression, which keeps them from living in their destiny. I want my children to choose my abundance and to say no to the lies. When my children believe the truth they can go to those who don’t have a choice- people who are manipulated and controlled by the devil-people who have no idea that they have a Father who loves them. They can set these people free! But if my children keep believing the lie that they are not in my presence, that they are lacking or inadquate, then they will remain in an endless cycle trying to make themselves better. “

As his children, we have the authority to choose what we partner with, and what we empower. Choosing to only empower the things of God with our thoughts leads to a life of freedom and joy because of the goodness of God. And it is in that place of his love and acceptance that we are transformed.

Things like fear, depression, hopelessness only have power when we allow them to. We can just flip the switch and turn them off. They only have power when we give it to them. We can send the weak little furbies back to where they came from! We have all that we need to live an abundant life in Christ!

“I am reminded of your sincere faith, a faith that dwelt first in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice and now I am sure dwells in you as well. For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.”  2 Timothy 1: 5-7.

When I read this passage I knew that there was treasure in it that could change my life! I read it over and over again, and finally, the Holy Spirit revealed its meaning to me.

It says that there was a faith that the grandmother, and mother had, and now Timothy has. There is an inheritance of faith being passed down through the generations of this family.

We were created for family. God intended for us to recieve an inheritance from our parents, grandparents, and ancestors (for example Abraham).  But family has been attacked by the enemy, and it is more rare to find a rich inheritance of faith passed down from generation to generation. Rather we see the sins of our fathers and mothers past down; we recieve inheritances of fear instead of faith. But God  is restoring the hearts of sons and daughters to fathers and mothers.

Many believers don’t have a rich inheritance of faith from their parents, and this is why God has given us spiritual mothers and fathers. He wants us to recieve the inheritance of faith that they have.

At Bethel, my spiritual mothers and fathers here constantly say, “I give you freely everything God has given me. I want you to go further than I did. I want my ceiling to be your floor.” We recieve the free gifts of God through faith, grace, and God’s love being poured into us through the Holy spirit.

The bottom line is this: The kingdom of God doesn’t consist of striving and earning, but recieving through faith the gifts of God! And as Paul writes in 2 Timothy, we recieve gifts of God through our spiritual fathers and mothers laying hands on us, and giving us what they have been given. And it is our responsibility to fan into flame the gifts of God we are given through impartation.

I had this revelation on Thursday. That night my Californian Mom and Dad, Ernest and Abby were over. I felt like I was to ask for them to give me a gift as a father and mother. Abby starts praying for me, and she imparts strength that comes from the Holy Spirit, and within moments I have collapsed to the ground. She continues to give what she has to me, and I start laughing like crazy. As i laughed, I felt the Holy Spirit strengthen me.  I woke up the next day feeling more secure, safe, and emotionally and spiritually stronger than ever before.

At school on Friday, I was meditating on the verse, and hoping that Bill would impart things to us. And the next minute Bill says, ” There is a strong annointing right now for impartation”, and about half the students flood the stage and sat under his feet, ready to recieve. We were sitting on the stage, recieving from the Lord, and then everyone started worshiping the Lord, singing in the spirit. It sounded angelic, it was like we were in a cathedral singing with angels! After worshiping for awhile, Bill had all 800 students line up to recieve impartation.

We all line up, and everyone is recieving from the Lord like crazy. Bill Johnson and all of our revival group leaders were lined up in a tunnel, and we walked through them as they laid their hands on us, imparting gifts to us.

The second I walked through that tunnel, I lost control of my body. God’s presence was so thick on me that my body could not contain it! I was falling over, shaking all over the place! It was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I could not stop it if i wanted to! I continued to walk through to the outside door, and the whole time I could not control my body, but it was so fun! God was giving me so much of his goodness! Everytime I would open my eyes, I would lay my hands on people, and give them what I was recieving, and my body would become even more out of control!

There was one point that i couldn’t for the life of me get off the ground. It was hilarious! My roomates had to carry me. All i know is that my spiritual fathers and mothers imparted to me some amazing things! I encountered the power of God more than I ever have before! it was incredible! I know that I’ll never be the same. Impartation is powerful. Now, I am responsible to kindle the fire that was lit, and to fan the flame  in a love relationship with God.

“my child, you have always been with me, and all that is mine is yours. “  luke15:25

i asked Jesus- “bring me to the father! i want to know the father!” And after I asked that, I saw a picture of the Father weeping, holding me in his arms.

Then i saw a picture of myself, a servant girl (exactly like danielle in the movie Ever After). I had been a servant for many years in my Father’s house, tending the fields. I enjoyed it because it was all I knew. I enjoyed the simple things like picking apples off the tree, and making the best of my servant quarters. I made the best of my poverty.  But i was tired and starved for love. I had no idea that i was serving in my father’s fields. I thought i was serving a hard hearted master, earning my way and keep. I was surviving, not knowing that i was on my father’s property.

Finally, I discovered that i was working under my Father. My kind father. I ran to him from the fields, dusty, dirty, tired, and broken. He was waiting for me! My papa was waiting so long for me to come into his home. He held me, weeping for a long time. He wept for sadness of the time that he missed me, and for joy that i had returned to him. it was so precious.

Then he sent me in for a bath, and i was made clean. And for my dirty rags, he gave me a long dress of fine material, with every color you can imagine. He put a royal cape on my shoulders, a crown on my head, and jeweled slippers on my feet. I was crying the whole time for joy that he would honor and love me so well.   I heard him say ” You are done working. Never again will you return to the fields. You are home now.”

Though I was fearful, the Lord has been faithful to show me how to trust him and let go of my fear bit by bit. The day I moved to Redding I had community–9 other room mates, a family that adopted me as their spiritual daughter, and an amazing revival group, and leader that has walked in the things I am desiring for my life. God has provided for me!
I searched all over Redding for a job. The job market here is pretty tough, and most people here have a pretty tough time finding work. Every time I prayed about a job, I saw myself making coffee! But none of the coffee shops were hiring! I got really desperate and started applying at every place i could think of, including Mcdonald’s and creepy gas stations! Not hiring! And finally, I applied to this job that seemed way out of my league and experience, and I was hired! HALLELUJAH!

I am working for a bakery and café called “From the Hearth”. Until the Café opens in mid January, I will be working as private contractor creating a menu , training manuals for both food and coffee, and finding the best deals on coffee equipment, coffee beans, and dinnerware. I will have more responsibility than i have ever had before!
When being interviewed, I discovered that both the owner and manager go to Bethel Church, have a heart for missions, house churches, the kingdom coming through business, discipleship through business, and business opening up doors all over the world! The owner just moved here from Hawaii where he and his family were planting churches to reach the lost! And my manager just moved here after serving 15 years on the mission field! Can you believe it?! These people have a passion for the same things i do!

[Back track a bit: This August I realized something-I want to do something I love, that is practical, that will make me money and bring the kingdom. When thinking about that I realized: I love coffee! I would love to open up a coffee shop! I would love to be equipped in how to start and run a business.]

My first week of school a student prophesied over me that God was bringing me into a drastically new realm of influence, and that I didn’t need to be afraid for lack of experience, because he would equip me!

God gave me incredible favor and has chosen me for this position! I have love for cooking, baking, and coffee, but I have no experience in the management or pioneering side of business. But I have been blessed with the opportunity to do this! My boss told me this: “ we believe that you have a good amount of experience, but that is not what has qualified you for this position. You are qualified because God has called you. And he is investing in you, and saying that you have what it takes.” My managers focus on doing everything out of love for Jesus. They want all that we do to be out of a place of the rest and peace of God’s presence. The purpose of this new business is to love people and to give to the city of Redding. They have a heart for everyone who works at this café to be family and to see the people who come into the store encounter the love of God.

This job and opportunity is almost too good for me to believe! I feel so honored that God would choose me, and that people would believe in me for something so big! Pray that I abide in Jesus for this work, because I cannot do it without him! Pray that through this many would have encounters with Jesus! And that God would equip me to start my own business one day! Receive this a testimony of God choosing us and giving us more than we could dream of!

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